Questions

Do you ever have so many questions that you feel they are a weight pressing down so hard that you feel you can't breath? Today, I feel that way. I dont know if I have a lot of questions, but the questions I have--I wonder if I should be asking them. Today, I am talking to somebody about those questions. Hopefully, I will leave with answers. But, you know what so weird? It not the questions that are making me feel sick to the stomach--no, it is the waiting to actually speak them in the open that is making me feel sick. I hate speaking about things that might be personal to others. I made the mistake of being to open once I dont want to do that again. But this isn't really personal, I mean, it is just about the bible. So I shouldn't worry, right?

I have been going back and forth with doubts. Maybe I should cancel the meeting, I mean, the questions don't seem that important anymore. Then I will argue: No they are important! Why would I ask to talk with this person in the first place? I am overwhelmed with the feelings that are filling up inside of me. It is filling up to the point that I think I might not be able to take it anymore.

Please pray for me to have the courage to go through. Its at 11 am.